They say the road to hell is paved with good intentions, what do you think? I think that there's some merit to that for sure. When I posted last week, I was feeling very motivated to follow through on my goal of eating healthy and moving. I was SURE that i'd be back this week posting some great results. My motivation was high and I was confident that it wouldn't falter.
I maintained a very good focus through the week and even to a certain degree on the weekend. I love to cook and experiment with new recipes. The weekend before I had made my first Fetucinne Alfredo to go along with a lovely Chicken Parmesan. I made the sauce with fresh tomatoes from Pauls garden and it was absolutely scrumptious!!! Of course as you know, the calorie and fat content in this dish is a dieters suicide, but I enjoyed it anyway. I think it's really important at times to enjoy a little of what you like. From past successes, I know that I can afford to have one really rich meal a week and still maintain my weight loss goals, but when my motivation isn't at its peak, I have a tendency to extend that one meal into days and weeks of eating with reckless abandon. It's not really about the quantity for me, but the food choices that I make. I fight the urge to eat chocolate on a daily basis and I do like my nuts (hehe....thank goodness i'm a woman, or that could surely be misinterpreted!) but nuts are meant to be enjoyed in tiny amounts to reap the health benefits.
So here's the down and dirty on the week. I moved! In fact I took several nice long walks with Sydney earlier in the week and on Saturday. My food choices for the most part weren't bad, up until Saturday night. I started off planning a nice grilled steak dinner with baked potatoes (which I never really eat), fresh Cauliflour from the garden. It was the pumpkin pie that killed me! I did plan on just having a sliver and I rarely eat the pastry (NO , not to cut calories.....I could be all righteous and say that I do, but that would just be a huge fib, cause I will eat pastry when my mom is making pie and fills the leftover with butter, brown sugar and cinnamon) but I did eat a substantial amount of the filling with cool whip (light of course!) Any how, I never really got my momentum back after Saturday and picked at the pie on Sunday and Monday......Succumbed to my craving for chocolate chip cookies on Monday and ate a few of those through tuesday as well...........so, as a result.....
I feel tired. I can definitely feel a difference in my energy levels when I am not eating healthy and in particular when I eat sugary foods
I am up two pounds on the scale this morning. This is sad, because I was DOWN two pounds on Friday. I truly wanted to avoid the scale as I was afraid to step on. I'm not going to get on until next week when I write this post....it's too hard for me
I feel bloated and I don't feel like my clothes are fitting better this week......go figure
I feel slightly embarrassed that I'm writing about my lack of success, rather than my achievement
I feel like I can pick myself up this morning, dust off and start over. I am a person that has a certain sense of pride and I KNOW that I am too proud to come here every wednesday and write about all the unhealthy habits i've been engaging in the week prior. I thought of "conveniently" skipping the post this week, but last week I spoke about accountability. Accountability goes hand in hand with honesty.
Honesty is such a lonely word....NO WAIT....isn't that a Billy Joel tune......hehe. Honesty is hard sometimes.
What do you all do when you get sidetracked from your goals and get discouraged?
I am starting my morning off with more than a good intention. I am affirming that I'm going to follow through on my goals for this week and make my goals more specific (that's a good thought for another day's post)
This week I will only eat fruit to satisfy my craving for sweets. I will walk for a minimum of 40 minutes each day and complete three 30 minute sessions on the elliptical (boy, I'll sure be tired if I leave THAT one until tuesday night or wednesday morning). I will follow through because I'm sure as not coming back here next week to tell you that I didn't. Pride can go along way with regard to positive change. One of the times that I successfully quit smoking was about 5 years ago, when I had to have major surgery. Most people would think that I quit for health reasons and all the GOOD reasons why people shouldn't be smoking; particularly those who are having major surgery
ARE YOU KIDDING ME???
I quit because I had to remain in the hospital for 3 or 4 days and I surely wasn't going to be one of those patients that you see outside of the hospital, arse hanging out of ugly blue gown, hooked up to a hundred wires
WITH BAD HAIR
smoking a cigarette
So yes, my pride can work to my advantage
and I WILL take that!!!
See you next week!
Note: found this great website through pinterest. Andie is a young journalist who has maintained a 135 lb weight loss for over 5 years. She has some wonderful thoughts and recipes for lower calorie foods. She also has some richer recipes as well. She's a good writer and i'm enjoying her website